my heart is an open palm, exposed and raw
In my land of bright lights you are effervescent -
Overwhelming at once, I am oblivious the next.
You are the palpable product of words I never meant,
Of clouded judgement, infinite dreams; my sweet Regret.
My conscience weighs you down and embeds you
Somewhere in the murky depths of this sepulchral soul.
Yet there is little want of redemption for what I do,
And you and your kind maketh the stories I never told.
Even now I would sing that I am yours, Yours!
As I believe you are mine in all your tainted forms.
Sucker as I am for your taste, touch and allure,
The beauty of folly is not weeping when all else mourns.
So this is an ode to my ill-fated penchant for
Secrets I have to keep, and everything that
I loved to hold but not to possess.
That I wish to forget, but forget to regret.
Friday, June 10, 2005
church camp was tremendously fun! and Pastor Agomoh is like super annointed, and not to forget, really FUNNEH. ha ha
cannot take it AH. then who take? i take AH?
hurhur, inside joke :)
well yeah and hwei and i really became wild boars, devouring almost everything yummy in sight. it was like buffet for three meals a day, and for FOUR DAYS. that makes it twelve buffets in four days. and not forgetting the twenty four donuts we bought, cinammon rolls, chips, snacks, OH and cakes and prata and satay and pasta and MUD PIES we ate. ogay you must be thinking im duper fat now. ha ha oh who cares lar. i've changed my mind and now i think that nothing else matters, except God's opinion. but i can't eat myself crazy too, i mean there's gotta be a limit. but yeah i shall continue ranting about food. mommy bought like two huge bags full of tid bits, not forgetting the yet-to-be-consumed stock of tid bits, ice cream and cup noodles and pasta that is already in my house. GAAAAAAH. it's alright, i'll be fine :)
oh and khaing min said something really funneh jes now, that i couldn't stop laughing.
"eh! you eat a lot you know!" i know, it's not that funneh to yall but yeah he said it in a ridiculous tone, as if he's never known me before. i mean like, hello ive known you for so long and this is what you tell me only now. perhaps i can't blame him, because i was like this pseudo-anorexic person last time.
ha ha fang jes sent me the two super dodo vids we took and im like laughing three-quarters of the time. hmm i bought like five pirated dvds and hwei got madagascar! gonna borrow from her to burn. we're really like little pirates okay. i was so worried jes now when we were crossing the customs check. seriously scary and i think the police guy knew we had dvds and stuff but he closed one eye cuz we're kids. owell, thank God.
I LOVE THE CHURCH CAMP and i'm like missing it so much already. the nice room, the company, being in God's presence all the time, PASTOR AGOMOH who's soooo cute and lovely, jes the whole thing generally. sigh, now there's no one to make my bed for me and clean up my room everyday already. it's jes me myself and i. boo.
and those four days of church camp meant that i didnt study for four days. yeap, good for me. so i gotta buck up for the rest of the two weeks. mind you, i didn't study at all for the past two weeks. im REALLY getting worried now. gee God give me strength, i'm gonna be able to do this!
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